May is usually a busy month for us. There will be 4 potlucks at work in the next week and there is a spring picnic this weekend for a coworker. Plus Lynn is still down visiting so i'd like to see her one more time before she goes.
Next weekend I work, it's Aiden/Eric/Jenette's birthday and mother's day. Then remarkably a slow week followed by memorial day weekend, baby Collin's first birthday party and the apricot festival. Not to mention working every Saturday this month and really wanting to take layla to the zoo or the ocean if the bad flu season dies down a little.
Last night I stayed up a little too late talking with the hubby and dreaming about a what if future that may some day be our reality if things ever get in the green instead of the red side of banking and it was nice. It was really nice. A good change from talking IRS calls, bills due, babysitting schedules and the perils of families that suck at being families. I needed it but I also carried it with me all day at work, a little too tired at work.
Right now, while layla plays at my feet and Jon naps upstairs I day dream of a new future, one filled with time for crafts, baking and baby's who clank things under my feet and that dream alone may be what keeps me going for a while.