Saturday, May 30, 2009

Back in place

I am back at work full time and so is Jon. This is my first Saturday off in my 4 week rotation but he works today. I have a birthday party for a 1 year old to take Layla to today and I am not entirely sure I am ready to chase a baby around in 100 degree heat by myself yet. Don't get me wrong, the bleeding has all but stopped I just still tire easily and I am still emotional.

Things seem to be slipping back to normal with only being occasionally haunted by remembering something someone said or did. I remember things in strange moments, at the grocery store, on the phone talking about something unrelated and I worry about money a lot now.

So is the way with anxiety, but they make pills for that which I am not too proud to use. I admit, I am broken but for the sake of Layla I do my best to appear whole.

1 comment:

Grammi Teri said...

I remember after my miscarriage thinking that the rest of the world got back to normal way too fast and I was still mourning. eventually you catch back up with the rat race- minus a little spot in you heart for your lost little one. there is a little bit of my own heart right there with yours.