This month my mommy of the year inner confidence has been battling over flowing dishes that don't get done, crumbs on the floor, laundry that never gets put away, trash that doesn't get taken out enough and bathrooms that I am ashamed of showering in. I'm just tired this month.
It's so easy to get swept up in running behind and to lose focus and just friday night Jon and I had the talk where he reminded me that part of being a great mom is taking time for yourself without your kid and letting things slide when they aren't really important. But, I still spent part of the work day thinking about all the chores that needed to be done at home and how bitter I was going to be about spending my only weekend day off doing them.
Then I came home. Layla was so happy Saturday. She stayed with Grammi Teri and she talked about all morning this morning, too. Jon said she cried when she left. And my house, she cleaned it. It was wonderful. She also took home her bowl I have had on the counter since December so it could go home with Erin. She rocks.
Now my thoughts of being way behind are mostly gone because my to do list got a lot shorter. And, I also know that Teri is going to have to babysit again soon, not because my house is clean but because layla won't stop talking about balls and shoes and grammi scaries outside pool.