Saturday, November 15, 2008

Is this us?



Pyzam Family Sticker Toy

I find myself wondering often if I will ever have another baby. When infertility looms around you it doesn't matter how poor you are or how stressed you are you find yourself wondering... is this it? Is this the 1 chance I had to have another baby and I'm not even trying? Am I going to regret this?

I look at Layla, confident one moment and shy the next. I watch Jon, calm and playful while he teachs her how life should be. I see myself, comforting and nurturing in the early morning hours. And I wonder...

Is this us? Is this it? Is this what it is going to be forever. Will there be another? Could I really love another one the same? Is it perfect now...

Should I be doing more...less... differently...

*sigh*


3 comments:

Candace said...

I wonder the same thing because of my age. We tried a year for Anna and now I am *gulp* years older. If I got a job we might be able to afford another one but then I wouldn't have the time with Anna. I just don't know which way to go. I figure she will be in school next year maybe then... If it isn't to late for us!

Tracee said...

yes. you could love another 1. all parents could.

Right now I'm thinking "we made two perfect specimens, why not a 3rd?"

Then hubby says, "because she said reversing the vasectomy would be both painful and expensive. NO."

Teaseburger said...

Ok that pic of your family is way too cute. :o) God will provide... ;p